My Greedy Girl...

What Next?

What next?

Well I would like Sindy to be more autonomous when it comes to persuing her sex life - but less automomous too in certain situations...

She knows she's free to see other men whenever she wants to (for sex) and I'd like her to make use of this freedom as and when she wants to. The key thing should be that she's absolutely certain in her own mind that getting herself fucked will please me. I'd like to stress that pleasing me should not be her motivation - that should be her need for sex.

There's something I need to explain at this point - the fact that Sindy doesn't allow me to play with other women - ironically she gets too jealous to even consider the idea. Not that I'm bothered because I don't want to have sex with any other woman - why should I when I have the best sex I've ever had with her. I only mention this because I'm not allowed to go to the club with her on a Saturday night - because there are too many women there. Mid-week is okay because it's mostly men but she always goes on her own at the weekend - though I always drop her off and pick her up.

What I want to say is that I'd like her to be more autonomous on a Saturday night and feel free to go to the club whenever she wants - certain in her own mind that getting herself fucked will please me.

I suppose what I'm saying is that I know she needs to have sex with other men and I want her to know that it's okay with me for her to have it whenever she wants.

Now when it comes to her being less autonomous the issue is a little more contentious because I'm not absolutely certain that she's okay about it. Last time we went to the club she went knowing that I'd expect her to have sex with anyone - anyone I decided could fuck her at least. It went fine and she had sex fifteen times and wanted more but I want it to be the norm - that when we go to the club together she goes on the clear understanding that she has sex with anyone I choose - that I have no need to consult her before offering her to someone.

I will always be there to watch over her - to ensure that the sex is safe sex - that her rules are followed - that she is treated nicely - and I won't let anyone I don't like fuck her. I won't let anyone I know she doesn't like fuck her. But the general understanding should be that she is there to be fucked. She's only been in this situation twice up to now but her only complaints were that she didn't get fucked enough and that some of the cocks weren't hard enough or big enough.

Like everyone she plays many roles in general life but when I take her to the club I want her to forget about everything else and give herself up to sex. I want her to put herself in my hands. She likes men wanting her, likes making their cocks go hard, and likes being fucked by them. I want her to feel so safe and secure in my care that she can drop all the barriers and give herself to any cock that wants her. I want her to get so turned-on that the man doesn't matter - only his cock - how hard it is and how well it fucks her. I want her to get so turned-on that she wants to be fucked by man after man until she's either satisfied or exhausted.

There's one more area where I want her to be less autonomous. When we go to the club, as described above, she'll make the decision to go or not go. But I want to be able to give her to other men whenever I want to. I want to be able to make arrangements with the men without consulting her and I want to be able to tell her at only a moments notice that she is going to be fucked by someone. Of course she'll want to be given enough notice to get herself ready but I want her to be happy about being given to someone else.

I know that she reads this blog so I want her to know that I've made arrangements for this to happen. It'll be at my house and I'll blindfold her before he arrives and she'll let him kiss her and touch her and take her clothes off. She'll get turned-on and spread her legs for him and let him fuck her and then he'll go and she'll never know who it was. Sindy - if you aren't excited by this idea I want you to tell me. If you keep quiet it WILL happen.

Valentines Day

It's Valentines Day today and my special message for Sindy is that I want to see her getting fucked like she was last night on a regular basis.

I took her to the swingers club - on the clear understanding that she'd let anyone fuck her - and she did - and had 15 cocks plus mine.

In every day life we are in love and are close and have a strong relationship. When it comes to sex though I want her to want sex and I don't want it to have anything to do with love. I want her to want cock and not just my cock. I want her to have a deep need to be fucked and not just by me. I want her to want to be fucked by four, five, or six men at once and not just one - whether me or someone else. I want her to be free to have sexual relationships with anyone she wants and for her to meet them regulary for sex. I want her to be free to have sex whenever she wants and I want her to be able to go out on her own look for men to have sex with. I like the thought of her getting ready - shaving her pussy and dressing very sexily - and going out with her pussy all ready for sex with a stranger, or strangers. I want her to want these things and it just wouldn't excite me if she only did them for me.

We are now at the stage where this is all out in the open. She knows that I want her to be like that and I know that she really does want to be like that.

So when club night came around I felt quite relaxed about telling her that I'd only take her if she'd let ANYONE fuck her - anyone at all that wanted her. I was quite relaxed about telling her that I would be making sure that she got fucked by as many men as possible and that I'd be doing so because the thought of her letting so many men have her cunt really turned me on. I told her she would be public property and that her cunt would be "ours" - meaning me and all the other men in the club. I gave her plenty of time to think about it and I gave her a completely free choice as to whether she went ahead with it - and she chose to do it.

When we got to the club we went to the changing room to hang our coats up and she was immediately greeted by someone that had evidently had sex with her before. He asked where her "I love cock" collar was and she dug it out of her bag and put it on for him. And then he lifted the hem of her dress so that he could see her pussy and he stroked it with his other hand. I liked her letting him do this and I like him feeling that it was okay to do so. I said we were going to start doing things straight away and I asked him if he wanted to join us. He said yes.

I put Sindy on all-fours and started playing with her pussy - getting it ready. A small crowd gathered and  was looking to see if any of them had hard cocks and wanted to fucked her. I licked her and fingered her and when she was ready to be fucked I invited one of the watchers to do so. He gave her a good fucking and as soon as he'd finished I asked someone else. In all six guys fucked her before her knees started to hurt her and we had to take a break. There was a crowd of about 30 people watching.

So we took a break and had a drink in the lounge. We were the only people in there and I asked her to sit on the opposite side of the room. I told her to sit with her legs apart and to smile and be very friendly towards anyone that approached her. I told her that she was to have sex with anyone that was interested and if they didn't ask I told her she had to offer herself. She did it. She went and sat on the opposite side of the room, facing me, with her legs wide apart and it was incredibly exciting to think that she was offering her cunt to anyone that wanted it. Unfortunately one of her friends started talking to her and before long there was a little group of them and all they were doing was gossiping, laughing and joking, and there was no sexual element at all.

She rejoined me to get away from them and I took her upstairs and lay her on a bed. I gave her our vibrator and she lay there, legs wide apart, fucking herself with it. Soon a little crowd gathered and I invited one of them to fuck her. He did and the men waited their turn patiently and in total nine of them fucked her over an hour and a half. By then it was late and we decided to go home.

When we talked about it afterwards she told me she'd have liked more and that she definitely wanted to do it again. I told her it was very exciting for me and that I wanted her to do it again.

Sindy gets dirtier

Sindy told me she was going out to the swingers club on Saturday night and that I'd be dropping her off and picking her up again when she wanted to come home. She spent the early evening getting ready and came to me, naked, and told me that, as she was about to get dressed, it was a good time to fuck her. I followed her upstairs and started licking her pussy. After a few minutes she told me she didn't have time for a lot of foreplay so I stopped licking her and fucked her for just a short while - as she was keen to get off to the club.

I dropped her at the club and picked her up again at 3.30 am. She told me what had happened on the way home. She said she got talking to a guy called S and after a while she asked him if he'd like to fuck her. He said yes and they went to a public room with three double beds in it, all pushed together. One was free and they had sex. At some point he lost his erection and she was playing with his cock to get it hard again when the woman on the ajoining bed started sucking it. Pretty soon the four of them were all doing things. Sindy was fucked repeatedly by both men and she did things with the woman too - kissing, fingering, licking. I asked her if she licked the woman's pussy and she said yes. I asked her if she got fucked at the same time and she said yes. She said a lot of people were watching. Afterwards one of the watchers got talking to her. He'd fucked her before on many occasions and he asked her if she wanted more. She said she always wanted more and so he fucked her as well.

I said in the last post that I'd asked her to offer herself to someone in particular. She told me that she did. He wasn't able to fuck her that evening for some reason so she told him that he could fuck her whenever he wanted... Why do I like this idea? What do I like about it? I think it's all about the strength of her sex drive and her desire to have sex - the more she wants sex the more she turns me on. It excites me to think that she wants sex constantly and will jump at the chance to have sex with anyone, not just me, without any emotional attachment, without any strings - all they need to be is reasonably presentable and as long as there is the prospect of getting fucked nicely she'll be wanting to make their cocks go hard, wanting to spread her legs and offer them her pussy, wanting them to push their cocks into her and give her a good fucking.... The thought of her being prepared to tell other men that they can fuck her whenever they want makes her seem hornier still. She's not responding to a situation - where she might be with a man and start thinking about having sex with him - she's making it very clear to them that she wants them - she's committing herself to having sex with them and she's giving them certain rights - the right to assume that she's there to be fucked by them whenever they want. I will particularly like watching her interact with this guy when next the three of us are together. The thought of her being his to fuck whenever he wants is very exciting. The thought of her body getting turned-on at the prospect of having sex with him is a huge turn-on for me. I love the fact that she wouldn't have to hide anything from me - that she could quite openly and naturally respond to his advances and go with him and have sex with him and then come back to me hungry for my cock too. I love the fact that she knows that being like that is incredibly exciting for me - that she can be herself and be loved for it.

I asked her if she'd felt different. She asked me what I meant. I mentioned the developments of the previous week when she'd admitted that she needed to have sex with other men and I told her she was free to do what she wanted. She told me she felt more independent. She told me she felt she could be "dirtier". I told her I was pleased and encouraged her to be "dirtier" still. She's been having sex with other men for three or four years but it has always been as an extension of our sex life together - something she did with my approval when opportunities arose. Our relationship has developed during those three or four years and we are now close enough for her to be quite open about how much she wants to have sex with other men. She wants lots of men. She loves cock and she loves being fucked - so much so that it's silly to pretend that she's "mine". She tells me that "anyone with a nice hard cock can fuck me" and she means it. And she wants men to know how much she wants sex and how much she loves being fucked. The men are just cocks to her and she's quite happy for them to view her as just a cunt that needs fucking. This is the kind of sex she really wants and I've accepted the fact that she's attracted to men in general and not just me - that she wants to have sex with men in general and not just me - with strangers, aquaintances, friends and old boyfriends, with couples, with groups...

So I've told her I no longer regard her as "mine". I thought she'd get upset about it as she does love me and sometimes gets very insecure but she seemed to like the idea. I told her that I knew she wanted to have sex with other men just as much as she wanted to have sex with me, maybe more, and though she protested at first I told her I knew it was true and she admitted it. I told her I didn't mind because I like fucking her better when she's just been fucked by someone else. This is why we are the way we are with each other. I encourage her because the dirtier she is the more she turns me on.

Changing the subject slightly - I woke up early this morning and wanted to have sex with her. So I wet my fingers and started playing with her pussy. It responded as it always does and she turned on her side and pushed her bottom out towards me encouragingly. I slipped my cock into her... She has never ever objected to me doing this and I know with absolute confidence that she will let me fuck her whenever I want. What I also know is that she would let anyone I chose fuck her too. It would be safe sex of course but I could offer her to a total stranger, without consulting her, and she would happily let him fuck her. I could offer her to my friends and I often do offer her to men at the club. She always wants sex - every minute of the day - and being treated like that turns her on...

Aftermath

We talked about things in depth afterwards. She confirmed that she really enjoyed it and stated again that she wanted to go out on her own to the swingers club on on both Friday and Saturday night for the express purpose of getting herself fucked by as many men as possible. It was as if she finally knew that it was okay with me for her to both want to do things like that - and to actually do them. She said I'd be dropping her off and picking her up afterwards and that when we got home she'd sit on my face while she told me how much cock she'd had.

I asked her if she felt different and she said no. I said that I saw her differently because she'd demonstrated to me that what she wanted wasn't sex with me but sex with men in general. She admitted that it was true - that she liked the excitement of being wanted by men and wanted to have sex with as many as possible and as often as possible. I said I saw her differently because I accepted that she wasn't mine any more. She said that her heart was mine but her cunt was anyone's. She quite clearly stated that any man with a nice hard cock could fuck her.

I told her how pleased I was with the direction we were going in and I asked her if she minded me liking it so much. She said no. I felt I had to tell her exactly how I felt and told her that I liked her letting herself be treated like she's just a cunt for fucking - whether by me or by other men. She didn't mind. She seemed to like me liking this. I told her that there was a particular man that I wanted her to have sex with at the club at the weekend and she asked why. I explained that he was clearly itching to fuck her again and I got her to promise that she would offer herself to him. I told her that I wanted her to tell him that he could have sex with her whenever he wanted. "At the club?" she asked and I said "no, wherever, whenever..." I explained that I wanted her to be free - completely free - to make arrangements to see him whenever she wanted without consulting me and that she could have sex with him without even telling me if she didn't want to. I told her that I thought she must find the idea exciting and she asked why. I said that it must be more exciting to have sex with someone  behind my back and she said it was more exciting to have sex with someone while I was watching. I told her I still wanted her to do it. She said she would - not because she particularly wanted to be fucked by him more than anyone else - but because she simply wanted to be fucked. "Anyone can fuck me," she added. She didn't literally mean anyone and she explained that all the men that fuck her are just cocks to her and she rates them on how well they fuck her and nothing else.

I said I wanted her to tell the ones she liked that they could fuck her whenever they wanted. I said I wanted her to have "sexual relationships" with other men - where there was the clear understanding that she'd have sex with them whenever the occasion arose, like meeting at the club, or whenever arrangements could be made. I told her I didn't want to own her and liked the idea of sharing her with other men. I told her I liked the thought of her commiting herself to them - by giving them the same right to expect to have sex with her that I had. She got very turned on when I was telling her this. She was lying on her back playing with herself furiously and then she turned to me and told me she needed cock. As I fucked her I told her I was using her. I said I was getting her to do all these things because it turned me on. I said I only wanted her for sex and that I liked being able to use her whenever I wanted - that I liked letting other men user because it turned me on... That she was just a cunt to me - that I liked the fact that she liked being treated like she was just a cunt to be fucked - by me and by other men. She told me she was the one doing the using. She said she was the lucky one. She said she knew I loved her and I got her to repeat her vow to me - to never be faithful and to always fuck when the opportunity arose. I asked her if she was mine. She said her heart was mine but I had to share her cunt. "My cunt's anyones," she said, "anyone with a nice hard cock can fuck me." I asked her if she loved me and she said she did - but she added that she also loved cock and loved being fucked.

I had to break off at that point and she read all that I'd written while I got ready to go out. I asked her, in the car, if she was okay about it all. She asked why she wouldn't be and I said that what I'd written made it clear that things were different now - that my view of her was different now - that our relationship was different now. She gave me a very relaxed smile. She seemed more self-assured than normal - as if she was totally confident that she had my approval - and her smiling eyes looked deep into me. "Yes," she said, "things are going to be different...". Her eyes told me exactly what she was thinking and she seemed to ooze sex - like she was ready for sex - itching for it - like she was going to break off from staring at me and look around - as if sex really did mean sex with anyone now. She looked hot and horny like she wanted to be touched, like she wanted her clothes to be removed so that hands could stoke all over her body and mouths could suck her nipples, so that she could spread her legs to let the cocks fuck her... My cock went rock hard and I asked her if she'd suck it. We were on the by-pass so it was only a matter of steering - so she released her seat belt and leaned over and undid my jeans and took my cock out. She sucked it till we got where we were going and then I dropped her off.

Did she do it?

In the last posting I said that I'd told Sindy that if she wanted to go to the swingers club this week it had to be on condition that she allow me to blindfold her - and whilst blindfolded she allow anyone I chose to fuck her... I said she had a totally free choice as to whether we went or not and I said I wouldn't bring the subject up again.

When the day came there'd been no more talk about going. Our normal routine when we go to the club mid week is for her to come to my house for dinner but we always check the arrangement with each other. When her normal arrival time came around I'd heard nothing from her and I wondered if I'd gone too far. I would not have been surprised nor disappointed because it was asking a lot of her. It wasn't just what I was asking her to do - let herself be fucked by a succession of totally anonymous cocks - it was more the fact that she'd be making a statement about her sexual nature. We'd talked about it and she knew that she'd be admitting to me that she had a deep need to be fucked by men in general and that she needed and wanted that more than sex with me. I'd done everything I could to convince her that it was what I wanted - but she would still be taking a big risk.

She turned up - unannounced - and there was no talk of going to the club whilst we followed our normal routine and had dinner together. Maybe she was trying to gauge my mood before committing herself. After dinner she disappeared to the bathroom and I got on with other things. Then she went to the bedroom and did her hair and make-up. There had still been no talk of going to the club. She got dressed - in a short black dress, black hold-ups, and thigh-length pvc boots. She seemed to be ready so I asked her if we were going to the club. In response to this question she lay on the bed and spread her legs. I got down between them and kissed her pussy. I noticed that it was freshly shaven as I started licking it. She opened up quickly and within a couple of minutes I could tell that she wanted fucking. I took all my clothes off and slipped my cock into her. She told me I'd better not come - because she wanted her cunt to be nice for other men to fuck...

I put the bondage cuffs on her wrists and asked her if she'd brought her "I love cock" collar. She had - and she put it on - and we set off for the club. When we got there we were disappointed to see how few cars there were in the car park and inside it was very quiet. We wandered around and she actually wanted to go home because there were so few men there but we stayed and had a drink. She suggested we have sex in a private room and then go home but I told her I wanted to take her to the fetish room. She got another drink and we went along to it. I said I wanted to tie her to the A-frame and she got into position. Basically she stands with legs apart and hands above her head - tied by her ankles and wrists to the frame. A couple of guys appeared in the doorway and I invited them in. They watched as I blindfolded her. I forgot to say that by this time she'd changed into a short black see-through slip and black high-heel shoes - and I'd put the bondage straps round her ankles. I lifted the slip up above her bottom and started using the vibrator on her pussy. She pushed her bottom out towards us and waggled it very enticingly - sending out the clear message that she welcomed the attention her pussy was getting. I asked the two guys (who I'll refer to as "B" and "D" ) if they wanted to join in and D took over from me with the vibrator while B started kissing her tits. The vibrator was sliding into her easily now and I knew she was ready to be fucked but I sat on the bed and enjoyed watching them playing with her. What I particularly liked was how much she was enjoying it - she released her hands and she used one of them to play with B's cock and she played with her clit with the other...

I asked the guys if they'd like to fuck her and of course they said yes so I untied her and led her to the bed, still blindfolded. She lay on her back, legs apart, waiting, and I looked at her wide-open cunt for a moment before the guys stepped forward to join her on the bed. One took her cunt and the other her mouth but she didn't know which was which and she didn't seem to care. She sucked the cock enthusiastically and she wrapped her legs round the one that was fucking her. They swapped several times and then I noticed that someone else had joined us (the door was open). I asked him if he wanted to fuck her and he said yes and put a condom on. Just then B came and took his leave and the new guy took his place immediately - he got between her legs and slipped his cock straight into her. Now Sindy had no idea who this was - none whatsoever - but she wrapped her legs around him and pulled him closer - her hands gripping his hips as she fucked him back. This was quite a moment for me. It could be argued that she'd chosen to have sex with B and D because she saw them before being blindfolded. But this new guy was a total stranger. She didn't know if he was black or white, English or foreign, because she'd neither seen him nor spoken to him. Her first contact with him was when he pushed his cock into her - and she responded very enthusiastically.

He fucked her for about twenty minutes and then came. Then D fucked her and came and I was left alone with her. I'd wanted to fuck her when she didn't know it was me so I slipped my cock into her but we were alone and I knew that she knew it must be me. We started talking and I told her how wonderful she was and she told me she'd be coming back to the club on both Friday and Saturday night because she wanted to fuck more. I told her that was fine, good even, that that was how I wanted her to be. I was still fucking her, and she was still blindfolded, when I noticed a guy was watching and wanking. He asked if it was okay and I asked him if he wanted to fuck her. He said yes and put a condom on. I got off her and he got on. He fucked her on her back and then she got on all-fours and he fucked her from behind. Another guy came in and I asked him if he wanted to fuck her and he said yes so as soon as C finished fucking her the new guy started. He gave her a real good fucking - on her back and on all-fours - and then she got on top of him and really fucked herself hard on his cock. She got off him then and came over to me. She started sucking my cock. The new guy - "D" - didn't know what to do and hung back but I gestured for him to fuck her from behind. I held her head in my hands and fucked her mouth and D fucked her full on from behind. He really did fuck her hard. I don't know how many times she came but when he did, and we stopped, there was a big damp patch on the bed where she'd squirted.

Will she do it?

I was fucking Sindy on Monday morning and I told her that if she wanted to go to the swingers club this week it would have to be on the clear understanding that she would be expected to have sex with a group of men, that I chose, whilst blindfolded so that she wouldn't know who was fucking her. I also told her that I would want her to wear bondage cuffs on her wrists and ankles and her "I love cock" collar round her neck (this has "I love cock" written in sequins on it). I told her that she would just be there to be fucked - by who ever I chose - and that she would have to put her complete trust in me and let herself be fucked and fucked. I said it would just be her cunt and "us" - meaning the men in the club.

I told her it was a test. I explained that we'd talked about doing this and I wanted to see if she would. I said that I hoped she would but I said it was completely up to her whether she did or not.I was fucking Sindy on Monday morning and I told her that if she wanted to go to the swingers club this week it would have to be on the clear understanding that she would be expected to have sex with a group of men, that I chose, whilst blindfolded so that she wouldn't know who was fucking her. I also told her that I would want her to wear bondage cuffs on her wrists and ankles and her "I love cock" collar round her neck (this has "I love cock" written in sequins on it). I told her that she would just be there to be fucked - by who ever I chose - and that she would have to put her complete trust in me and let herself be fucked and fucked. I said it would just be her cunt and "us" - meaning the men in the club.

I told her it was a test. I explained that we'd talked about doing this and I wanted to see if she would. I said that I hoped she would but I said it was completely up to her whether she did or not.

It's not about domination and submission - not for me anyway. Obviously she has to have complete trust and surrender total control to me but that's not what it's about. That just enables it to happen. What it's really about - for me anyway - is her sexual nature - and whether the prospect of that kind of sex excites her. It will be totally impersonal because she won't know who is fucking her. It will just be her, blindfolded, with five or six anonymous cocks that want to fuck her cunt and her mouth. It will be about her surrendering to the group and letting those cocks penetrate her time after time. Hopefully she'll enjoy it. Hopefully it will really turn her on. Hopefully she'll want to do it again.

For me it's a question of whether or not she'll let her sex drive take total control. I will turn her on beforehand but it won't be a question of whether she will share her body with me. The question will be whether or not she will share her body with an unknown number of strangers that she won't even get to see. Does she want that kind of sex? Will she let me take her out dressed for sex in very revealing clothes, with bondage straps on her wrists and ankles, and a collar telling everyone that she loves cock. Everyone will know that she's there to be fucked - will that excite her?

The key thing for us is that we both accept that sex - for her - goes beyond our relationship, that she would never want to be confined to any single man, that she wants to have sex with lots of men and not just the man she loves. That she wants men in general to want her for sex and she wants to be free to have sex with them whenever she wants. I know this to be the case and I want her to indulge herself. I want her to let me take her out, to be fucked blindfolded, so that she will know that it's okay by me for her to have the sex drive she has - for her to want sex like this - for her to want men in general and not just me - for her to want to have lots of hard cocks fucking her and not just mine. I want her to do it for herself but I want her to know that it will bring us closer too.

If it happens it'll be time for more analysis - why does she like it? Is it the submission? Is it the attention? Is it being a pure and total sex object?

We'll have to see if it happens first...

It's not about domination and submission - not for me anyway. Obviously she has to have complete trust and surrender total control to me but that's not what it's about. That just enables it to happen. What it's really about - for me anyway - is her sexual nature - and whether the prospect of that kind of sex excites her. It will be totally impersonal because she won't know who is fucking her. It will just be her, blindfolded, with five or six anonymous cocks that want to fuck her cunt and her mouth. It will be about her surrendering to the group and letting those cocks penetrate her time after time. Hopefully she'll enjoy it. Hopefully it will really turn her on. Hopefully she'll want to do it again.

For me it's a question of whether or not she'll let her sex drive take total control. I will turn her on beforehand but it won't be a question of whether she will share her body with me. The question will be whether or not she will share her body with an unknown number of strangers that she won't even get to see. Does she want that kind of sex? Will she let me take her out dressed for sex in very revealing clothes, with bondage straps on her wrists and ankles, and a collar telling everyone that she loves cock. Everyone will know that she's there to be fucked - will that excite her?

The key thing for us is that we both accept that sex - for her - goes beyond our relationship, that she would never want to be confined to any single man, that she wants to have sex with lots of men and not just the man she loves. That she wants men in general to want her for sex and she wants to be free to have sex with them whenever she wants. I know this to be the case and I want her to indulge herself. I want her to let me take her out, to be fucked blindfolded, so that she will know that it's okay by me for her to have the sex drive she has - for her to want sex like this - for her to want men in general and not just me - for her to want to have lots of hard cocks fucking her and not just mine. I want her to do it for herself but I want her to know that it will bring us closer too.

If it happens it'll be time for more analysis - why does she like it? Is it the submission? Is it the attention? Is it being a pure and total sex object?

We'll have to see if it happens first...

Recap

I rambled on in the last posting but Sindy read it all and confirmed that it was accurate. I questioned her quite closely when we talked about it and so I'm now in a good position to summarise.

We're in love and regard each other as partners for life but when it comes to sex she doesn't want to be restricted to me. She wants to be able to have sex with anyone she chooses and whenever she wants. She confirmed that she would rather have sex with a group of men than with a single man. She doesn't want emotional entanglements - just sex - and she said she was perfectly happy for the men to treat her as a sex object. I pressed her on this point because I wanted to be certain. I asked her if she meant that it was okay for the men to want her for her cunt - because all they wanted was to fuck her - and she said yes.

So she wants to interact with men on a purely sexual level. There is of course the presumption that it will always be safe sex and that she will be treated nicely, but given that, she basically wants to be fucked as much as possible and by as many men as possible.

I don't want to create the impression that she'll have sex with just anyone. She won't. Above all the guys have to have the right attitude. Physique is a factor but a relatively minor one. They HAVE to be clean. Given these basics the biggest thing a man could have going for him is a hard cock. This would turn her on like nothing else and she'd want to have it fucking her in the shortest possible time. She wants to be wanted by men - she likes turning them on - but she doesn't just like the attention - she wants to make cocks go hard because she wants them to fuck her.

So she wants to have sex with total strangers, with groups of men, with ex-boyfriends, with men she's met online, with men at swingers clubs... But it's not just the physical sex she enjoys. When it comes to socialising she wants them to interact with her on the sexual level. She likes them getting in touch to ask if they can have sex with her. She likes there being the presumption that she will. She would even like it if they asked her to have sex with their friends and would happily go to someone's house knowing there'd be five or six strangers hoping to have sex with her. When she talks to men at the club she doesn't want to chat about their jobs or the weather - she wants them to interact sexually - via eye contact and body language as well as conversation - to quickly establish whether they are going to have sex together or not. If they aren't she'd want to move on quickly. If they do she'd be highly likely to let others join in or fuck her when it's over.

Web Camming

I wonder if Sindy has been fucking behind my back, we plan something special for the club, and Sindy plays with herself on web cam.

 I've been off sex again for a couple of weeks. Sindy didn't complain - the only thing she said was that she was glad to have her pervert back when we did start fucking again. I soon got back into it. I told her I hoped she had men that would take up the slack when I wasn't fucking her. She just smiled over her shoulder at me. She was on her side and I was fucking her from behind. She was pushing her bum back towards me rhythmically and her cunt felt wonderful on my cock. One of my hands was pulling her head back by her hair and the other was feeling her tits. She took this one and moved it to her mouth - so that it was clamped hard over it. She fucked me even harder and I started to tell her how I'd like to blindfold her and watch her letting guys fuck her - when she didn't even know who they were. I told her I'd take a turn because I wanted to see what it was like to fuck her when she didn't know it was me. I asked her if she'd like to do it and she just told me to take her to the club next week...

We fucked for quite a while - but not an excessively long time. We had to stop because she was sore. I said maybe it was because she was out of practice. But then I caught a fleeting expression on her face that made me wonder... So I said maybe it was because someone else had been fucking her - and fucking her really hard. She just smiled.

I still had my cock in her and I moved it in and out - ever so gently so that it hopefully wouldn't hurt her. All the while I was wondering if she had been fucking someone else behind my back. I told her that I hoped she had - that she should fuck as much as she liked - that I trusted her to have safe sex... She was pushing back on my cock again so she must have like hearing this. Another thought suddenly came into my head and I asked her how many men had fucked her in total. She said she thought it must be about 500... I kept the number fixed in my head as I gently fucked her but then my mind returned to the question of what she'd been up to recently - behind my back. I told her that I was pretty convinced that another man, or other men, had been fucking her. I paused so that she could deny it if she wanted to. She was silent. I said that it was okay by me anyway and that she didn't have to tell me anything about it. She changed the subject...

We talked about what we were going to do with the rest of the weekend and she said she wanted to go to my house on the Sunday afternoon so that she could go online with the web cam. I didn't object. When the time came I left her to it and got on with other things - popping my head round the door to see what was going on from time to time. What she wanted to do was play with herself on web cam with hundreds of guys watching. The first time I looked in she was just playing with her tits. What I was waiting for was when she'd have her legs spread wide apart - with her cunt really turned on - wet and swollen and gaping open all ready to be fucked. I actually started ironing some shirts in the kitchen and after a while she came in to see me. I felt between her legs. She was wet but she wasn't as swollen as I wanted her. She asked me to fuck her but I told her to go back on the web cam and play with her pussy some more. I told her I'd only fuck it when she'd got it REALLY ready. I finished off my ironing and then joined her - she was lying back on the sofa, playing with herself, legs wide apart, pussy gaping - pink, and wet, and swollen. I moved the camera nearer so the guys could get a better look. There were about 350 of them and she read the messages they were sending her as she played... She read them out loud to me if they amused her - or pleased her. She laughed when one said he wanted to fuck her tits - because in her view they are small. She didn't like it when they said they wanted to fuck her up the arse because she doesn't like that. She likes knowing that she's turning them on, that they're wanking, that they'd love to push their cocks into her and give her a good fucking. It would be nice to see her doing it for real in a room full of men - with her getting her cunt ready for fucking with them looking at her with their cocks out wanking. They'd wait patiently as she got more and more turned on - till she reached the point where she'd couldn't wait any longer and then she'd start looking at their cocks, looking for the one with the biggest and she'd smile at him and nod and he'd step forward. She'd be lying on a bed, legs apart, and he'd get between them and slip his cock into her and then lie down over her and start fucking her. I'd see her wrap her legs round him and stroke her hands over his back. I'd see her moving under him and I'd hear her moaning with the pleasure of it. She'd pick out another as soon as he'd finished and one or two others would move forward and sit on the edge of the bed. They'd start touching her while she was being fucked and she'd seek out their cocks with her hands. They'd all have condoms on of course and pretty soon she'd be sucking their cocks enthusiastically. More of them would step forward but I'd have to restrict them to just four or five on the bed with her at a time. She'd be fucked constantly but they'd also be sucking her nipples and stroking their hands all over her body. At one point I get them to take up positions at the corners of the bed and hold her ankles and wrists firmly so that she's spreadeagled and can't move while two or three of them take turns fucking her. Later she just gets on all-fours and rests with her elbows and forehead on the bed while they fuck her from behind. If ever there's a lull she waggles her bottom to entice them. When they are all done she chats with the ones that have stayed, sitting provocatively to encourage any of them that want more. She talks to them but she's not really listening. She looking into their eyes to see if they want her. She's looking at their cocks to see if they're hard enough to fuck her, and she's sitting with her legs apart and her cunt on full view - available, accessible, and offered to anyone that wants it. This is how I think she'd like to be though it's largely fantasy because it would be difficult to get the right blend of men together and for everything to fall into place like that. But it is the kind of sex she wants ideally - so far as I've been able to establish. I've been the one that has limited what we do and it has been a process of me getting comfortable with it. I think our relationship is strong enough for her to start expressing herself more proactively. I know that when it comes to sex deep down it has nothing to do with love or our relationship - that she wants to have sex with men in general and that the reality is that every man she meets is a potential sexual partner. I also know that she would rather have sex with four men than with one man... When it comes to being fucked it's how much the man wants her that counts not who he is. It's how good his cock feels and how well it is fucking her that matters. It has nothing to do with love or relationships. On the contrary she loves the excitement of being fucked by total strangers. She likes interacting with men in general. She likes old boyfriends getting in touch and she is always keen to meet up with them again for sex. The ones she stays in touch with have an open invitation to have sex with her - and she wants them to regard her as someone they can fuck whenever they like - and she likes me knowing this, likes me approving of it... She likes flirting with her casual acquaintances - the men that fuck her from time to time at the club - and she likes turning them on - likes them wanting her - likes them fucking her - likes other men joining in when they do. I know that when it comes to sex I am just one amongst many. I have a special role because I'm her partner but I know that when it comes to sex it's a hard cock and a good fucking that she wants - not me. I just have to accept the fact that she needs to interact with men in general, not just me, and that she wants to interact with them on the sexual level - that she wants the men that she likes to want her, to be turned on by her, to want to fuck her, and to actually fuck her - that she's even happier doing this with a group of men. I know that she wants more sex. More with me and more with other men. I can't give her any more than I am so she has to know that it's okay to get it with other men. It's time for her to take the lead and get what she wants - whether with me at her side or on her own.

So after the web camming when it was time to fuck her - I couldn't - I was so turned on I'd have come as soon as my cock touched her. So I licked her instead and we talked dirty. She asked me if I liked the thought of all those men looking at her and when I said yes she told me she liked the thought of them all wanting to fuck her. She told me she wanted cock. The way she said it I knew she didn't mean mine necessarily. She told me she just wanted a nice hard cock, any nice hard cock... A stranger's. Anyone's. Like when we go to the club. When you blindfold me. When you let cock after cock fuck me. When I can't see who it it. When I don't know who it it. When it's just cocks fucking me...

Later I was fucking her from behind again and she was really pushing back on me. She was in her  own little world and I was in mine. I don't know what she was thinking about but I imagined her having no concern at all as to who was fucking her. She was just enjoying being fucked. I told her I wanted to see her fucking the cocks at the club like she was fucking mine right then. When I'm blindfolded? she asked and I said yes. I told her I wanted to be able to see how much she was enjoying it and she said she'd show it if the cocks were hard and giving her a good fucking. We fell silent but continued fucking and I was filled with love for her. She felt like she was mine - all mine - and yet at the same time I knew that she wasn't - that she needs to be fucked by other men - that her natural desire is to have sex with any reasonably attractive man she encounters - that having sex with them would be her priority if circumstances permitted - that she would want to be naked and spreading her legs for them and letting them fuck her. I'm always telling her that she should fuck as much as she likes - because the thought turns me on - but as I fucked her myself I also felt that because I love her I had to do my utmost to ensure she gets all the sex she wants. I was looking at her back. At her bottom. She didn't seem to be aware of me - she seemed distant. She was just being fucked... She loves it and I know I can fuck her whenever I want. But I know she wants to be fucked by strangers too, by old boyfriends, by big men (much bigger than me), by black men, by groups of men. What I think was best about that particular moment was that she seemed so relaxed - like she really felt that it's okay for her to be herself and fuck like she wants to and it won't be a problem for us.

 Later still she asked me to fuck her while she was on all-fours. She explained that she wanted to see if it was still painful in that position - "for when you blindfold me at the club", she added. She's changing all the time... I asked her about doing this about six months ago (having sex with a group of men - blindfolded so she didn't know who was fucking her) and she said no. But now she seems really keen to do. When we met penetrative sex wasn't that important to her - she preferred being licked and fingered and I remember doing it for hours on end. But now she loves being fucked. When she went to sex clubs she hardly ever let anyone fuck her - preferring to have several guys kissing and licking her - but now she goes out to be fucked and wants to be fucked by as many men as possible. Before we met she'd never had sex with two men but now she prefers having sex with four or five to having sex with one... I want her to keep on changing. I want her to have more sex with more men. She seems to love cock more and more as time goes by - and being fucked by them of course - and I want her to take this to her limit - to try to get all the cock and all the fucking she wants.

These photos aren't very good... They were taken from some video footage...

Wild Fucking

In which we go to a swingers club and Sindy gets fucked 7 times by 2 guys.

We went to the swingers club... I was extremely tired and actually slept while Sindy got ready but I knew how much she wanted to go so we went. We had a wander round - it was very quiet - and we decided not to waste any time and to get on with things. I got her ready in a private room - licking and fucking her and then we went back down to the bar. After getting a drink we introduced ourselves to a guy who'd fucked her the week before - the only words that had passed between us then had been when he asked if he could join in. We didn't even know his name nor he ours but he'd given her a good fucking and Sindy had already told me she'd love to be fucked by him again. I did most of the talking and Sindy hardly said anything. It was just chit-chat and Sindy seemed bored with it so I asked him if he'd like to fuck her again and he leapt at the opportunity - which was nice. Sindy hadn't even been paying attention and when I gestured to her to get up she was puzzled. "Upstairs," I said and she smiled because she knew it meant "upstairs, you're going to get fucked".

We went to a private room and I locked the door. Sindy lay on the bed and M took his clothes off - standing beside the bed. His cock was already hard and Sindy reached up and wrapped her fingers round it. I told him she was all ready and that he should just fuck her. He put a condom on and she sat up and sucked his cock. Then she lay down on her back, spread her legs, spread her pussy lips with her fingers, and waited for him fuck her. He got between her legs and pushed his cock into her and she raised her knees and wrapped her arms around him. He fucked her like that and then she got on all-fours and he fucked her in that position.

He'd been quite rough with her the previous week. I'd been a little bit concerned but she'd taken care of herself. At one point she grabbed his balls and squeezed and he pulled away and she warned him that he had to be able to take it if he was going to dish it out. She seemed to relish the challenge - the confrontation - and wasn't the least bit intimidated or put off. She said he'd been the best of the four that had fucked her. After having his balls grabbed so roughly he made a quick exit and she later told me she knew exactly how to handle him.

It started getting rough again when she got on top. He was making a lot of noise - clearly enjoying the encounter - but grunting and groaning like a wild animal. He started grabbing her buttocks as she sat on his cock fucking him, digging his nails in and slapping them loudly. She fucked him all the harder.

Then she got on all-fours again and sucked my cock while he fucked her from behind. Then she sat on my cock for quite a while and I thought M might wander off but he hung around and she went back to him and the fucked for quite a while.

When M left us I started fucking Sindy again and another guy came into the room. He saw what we were doing he excused himself and went to leave but I called him back and told him that Sindy wanted to have sex with him. He said he wanted to have sex with her but when it came to it he couldn't maintain an erection and we decided to take a break.

Safe Sex

Sindy went to the club, as she now normally does on a Saturday night. I dropped her off and picked her up at 2.30am. She had three guys. They fucked her fifteen times between them.

At one point she wandered in to a room where a guy was wanking as he watched his partner sucking some other guy's cock - without a condom. He gestured to Sindy for her to suck his cock - without a condom. Another guy walked up to the woman - who was on all-fours - and started fingering her pussy. She let him without even glancing at him. Sindy walked out - disgusted with their lack of concern for safe sex.

Stamina

Despite having a seemingly limitless appetite for sex Sindy has never been demanding. She has never complained about slow recovery times or periods when I've lost interest in sex. I even suffered a lengthy spell of impotence and she was wonderfully understanding and supportive throughout. The impotence actually started on the night we met. I'd had it once before but I put it down to the boring nature of the relationship I was in. On that first night with Sindy I was really fired up and we went to bed and we started fucking and then it just went. I wanted to fuck but my cock didn't. I think it was because I felt the power of her sex drive and it was of a different order of magnitude to anything I'd experienced before. I didn't know it consciously because at that time she kept the strength of her sex drive hidden but something visceral within me detected it and was intimidated. She must have detected something in me because she stuck with me for the two months or so that it took to get fully over the problem.

No single man could match her if he came everytime he fucked her. At my peak I could only ever come three times in a day and I'm well past my peak. There have been times when she's been fucked over thirty times in a day and still wanted more. The only way I can come close to being an adequate partner for her is to restrict the number of times I come so that I can perform more frequently.

When I was younger I was pretty good at controlling my orgasm and as I got older and found myself in relationships with women who'd had children it was even easier. In some cases reaching orgasm was quite difficult. Well Sindy's had children and I'm older still but controlling my orgasm is more difficult with her than when I was 18 and having sex with 18 year olds. She simply has the most fantastic cunt imaginable. For most of my adult life I regarded myself as quite an accomplished lover. I had a good attitude and put the woman's pleasure first and only came when I felt she'd had enough. But now I have real problems. Fucking Sindy is so good that I can't control myself properly. I have to stop, or at least slow, to avoid coming. It must be very frustrating for her - but she never complains.

I say all this because I write about fucking her, and fucking her, and I wouldn't want anyone to think I was trying to create the impression that I'm some kind of super stud. I am most certainly not.

Another reason I'm writing about this is because some might have wondered why I encourage her to have sex with other men. Well I'm having the best sex of my life and more of it than I've ever had but my partner needs more. Not only does she need more sex than I can give her - she needs more than a one-to-one relationship can give her. Interacting with me on the sexual level isn't enough for her. She needs to interact with lots of men. She needs to go out, scantilly clad to make men in general want her. She wants them to want her body and she wants to see and feel their desire for her, embodied in an erection. That's part of it. But she follows through completely because she also wants to be fucked by them - by men she knows well or to varying degrees, by new aquaintances, by complete strangers. She can only have this kind of sex in special environments - where she knows she is safe. I provide the safety when I take her to have sex with men in their homes or their hotels rooms or when I drop her at the club at midnight and pick her up in the early hours. And it's all good for our sex life because it really turns me on that she is like this and she gets the added boost of me being wild for her afterwards.

. I wanted to fuck but my cock didn't. I think it was because I felt the power of her sex drive and it was of a different order of magnitude to anything I'd experienced before. I didn't know it consciously because at that time she kept the strength of her sex drive hidden but something visceral within me detected it and was intimidated. She must have detected something in me because she stuck with me for the two months or so that it took to get fully over the problem.

No single man could match her if he came everytime he fucked her. At my peak I could only ever come three times in a day and I'm well past my peak. There have been times when she's been fucked over thirty times in a day and still wanted more. The only way I can come close to being an adequate partner for her is to restrict the number of times I come so that I can perform more frequently.

When I was younger I was pretty good at controlling my orgasm and as I got older and found myself in relationships with women who'd had children it was even easier. In some cases reaching orgasm was quite difficult. Well Sindy's had children and I'm older still but controlling my orgasm is more difficult with her than when I was 18 and having sex with 18 year olds. She simply has the most fantastic cunt imaginable. For most of my adult life I regarded myself as quite an accomplished lover. I had a good attitude and put the woman's pleasure first and only came when I felt she'd had enough. But now I have real problems. Fucking Sindy is so good that I can't control myself properly. I have to stop, or at least slow, to avoid coming. It must be very frustrating for her - but she never complains.

I say all this because I write about fucking her, and fucking her, and I wouldn't want anyone to think I was trying to create the impression that I'm some kind of super stud. I am most certainly not.

Another reason I'm writing about this is because some might have wondered why I encourage her to have sex with other men. Well I'm having the best sex of my life and more of it than I've ever had but my partner needs more. Not only does she need more sex than I can give her - she needs more than a one-to-one relationship can give her. Interacting with me on the sexual level isn't enough for her. She needs to interact with lots of men. She needs to go out, scantilly clad to make men in general want her. She wants them to want her body and she wants to see and feel their desire for her, embodied in an erection. That's part of it. But she follows through completely because she also wants to be fucked by them - by men she knows well or to varying degrees, by new aquaintances, by complete strangers. She can only have this kind of sex in special environments - where she knows she is safe. I provide the safety when I take her to have sex with men in their homes or their hotels rooms or when I drop her at the club at midnight and pick her up in the early hours. And it's all good for our sex life because it really turns me on that she is like this and she gets the added boost of me being wild for her afterwards.

Everything in jeopardy

I got drunk at home on my own last night while writing a posting for this blog and she was angry with me. She doesn't like me drinking on my own and I lied to her and said I wasn't. She was suspicious and kept phoning me and I got progressively more drunk until I couldn't deny it any longer. She was really mad with me - for drinking and for lying. I tried to apologise. I was ashamed of myself and I was, and still am, truly sorry.

More worryingly she said I was being "weird". I asked her what she meant, wondering if she meant the blog. I'd put some of my views on religion in there in my drunken state. She asked me to take them out and I did. Now I notice that a couple of other paragraphs have been deleted. Paragraphs about us and I don't know if I deleted them accidently or whether she has been on and deleted them.

It's not nice having her think I'm weird. The way we are together IS extreme. But we got where we are in our relationship by leading each other on in a long sequence of small steps. Did I go too far in my drunken stupor? She hasn't called me yet and she normally has by this time.

Later - she has just phoned and she was fine about everything - the drinking, the lying, and the being weird. This was a relief but I was still worried about her thinking me weird and wondered if she was saving it for more discussion when we were together.

Later still - I went to her house to take her shopping and I lay on her bed as she got dressed for the cold weather - mainly thick black tights. Even she wears tights occasionally! I wanted to fuck her but I didn't dare because I felt I was still in her bad books and I was still worried about her thinking me weird. When fully dressed she went to the loo and I lay on the bed reconciling myself to the fact that there would be no sex and wondering when the air would be cleared conclusively.

She came back into the bedroom and asked if I wanted sex as she passed the bed to get her coat. I said yes immediately and she lifted her dress and said "what do we do with all this", gesturing to the tights, knickers, and knee-high black boots. I told her to just pull the tights and knickers down and lean over the bed. I got down behind her and tried to lick her cunt. My nose pressed against her bum and she giggled because it (my nose) was cold, and because it tickled her. "Just fuck me," she said. So I did. She ended up flat on the bed with me sitting astride her pushing my cock deep into her fantastic cunt. Then I lay down on her, still fucking her, our cheeks touching, and she started talking dirty to me. What a relief! My worries about being weird faded away...

Getting There...

We were going to the swingers club and Sindy told me that she was going to wear her new black, shiny, skin-tight pants. (See previous post for photos and description). She'd bought two identical pairs and we'd cut the crotch out of one of them. I asked her if she would wear that pair and she said "NO" in an adamant tone of voice. But then she added that she might change into them later in the evening.

We drove through the cold, miserable, winter's night and when we got to the club we discovered that it was virtually empty! There were just six single guys in there and I suppose that was because of the Christmas and New Year festivities - with it being the 2nd January 2008. We hung our coats up and walked into the bar to get a drink. Sindy was wearing black thigh-length pvc boots and a skin-tight top together with the black skin-tight pants (that show every contour - even the outline of her pussy lips). I got talking to a guy called Chris who I thought had fucked Sindy before but neither of us was sure. We left him at the bar and went for a wandered around. Nothing much was happening but Sindy said there were two guys she definitely wanted to have sex with. We went to a private room and I licked her and fucked her to ensure that she would be ready for them.

I suggested she go and talk to Chris at the bar and "offer herself" to him - something I get a kick out of. I don't know if he was one of the two she wanted anyway but she went. I watched from the next room. She looked incredibly sexy in her tight black shiny outfit and it was even sexier to think that she was going to sit and talk to Chris because she wanted him to fuck her. The bar staff were chatting to them - making it very difficult for her - so I went and joined them. Two other guys joined in the conversation and then Sindy whispered in my ear that she was going off to get changed.

When she returned she looked exactly the same at first glance - clad in the same skin-tight shiny black pants. But anyone who looked at her pussy would have noticed a distinct and significant difference because it was on full view - her pussy lips were pouting through a long oval slit that gave complete access to that most-important part of her body. She sat on a bar stool - with her towel under her bum - between me and the other three guys - the five of us in a line at the bar. When I put my hand on her leg she half-turned towards me and I started playing with her pussy. She was turned-on and my fingers slipped inside her. The bar staff were busy now and the conversation turned to sex. The guys were lamenting the fact that it was so quiet - clearly hinting for some action with Sindy. She swivelled on her bar stool to face them. She spread her legs... They hadn't noticed the change of pants. Chris looked down and his eyes nearly popped out of his head! The others looked over his shoulders. With her legs apart and her pussy on full view she asked them if they'd like to take her upstairs and fuck her.

We went to a private room and I told Sindy to lie on the bed. This she did - with her legs wide apart. She didn't undress - she didn't need to as we had complete access to her cunt. I went through the rules with them - safe sex and all that - and then I said I'd lick her cunt and when she was ready they could start fucking her. This didn't take long and within two minutes one of them was fucking her. When he put her on all-fours she sought out Chris's cock for her mouth while the first guy continued fucking her cunt. Then the two guys swapped ends. It went on like that until both guys came - and went. That left the third guy. He tried but it was his first time and nerves got the better of him - he was unable to perform. I reassured him that it was normal and happened to me all the time and suggested we get together a little later.

Sindy needed a pee and I went with her. She chatted and I got my cock out and started wanking. She asked me if I was getting it ready to fuck her with and when she'd finished peeing she bent over and let me slide my cock into her freshly fucked cunt. It was very swollen - wide open and wet - and still hungry for more cock - and not just mine... We went and got another drink. She was still dressed the same and it was tremendous for me to be with her - to have her holding my hand as we walked through the club - with her oozing sex in her skin-tight shiny black outfit - with her cunt on full view - truly on offer because I knew she'd let anyone with a nice hard cock fuck her - I knew that all it would take would be for her to exchange a smile with someone and her cunt would be his - that she'd let him lead her to a bed and she'd lie down before him, spread her legs, and let him fuck her.

We had a drink and then bumped into the guy that had failed. I asked him if he wanted her now. He said yes and I let him fuck her in private - standing outside the door so that I could intervene if he got rough with her. There was no need to worry. She got a good fucking from him and then popped her head out the door to check I was still there. Reassured she went back to him and he fucked her some more - then he thanked us and left.

I saw another of the single guys on the stair and told Sindy to stay on the bed... I'd noticed him looking at her in the bar and I hurried after him and asked him if he wanted to fuck her. He said yes and I led him back to the room. He was fine about me being there and I watched them fuck for about twenty minutes. At one point she was sucking his cock and she angled her bum towards me and waggled it. I slipped my cock inside her and fucked her slowly till I could see that the guy wanted her cunt again...

We thought about going home but there was something I wanted to do... We went to the lounge, which was empty, and I sat opposite her, with a long coffee table between us. I told her to spread her legs wide and I handed her our vibrator. She lay back on her sofa, with her towel underneath her, and she started sliding the vibrator in and out of her cunt. I told her that if anyone came into the room, or even joined us, she was not to stop. A couple of people did pop their heads round the door, and she didn't stop, but no one joined us unfortunately. After a while I went and knelt between her legs and I slid my cock slowly in and out of her cunt while she used the vibrator on her clit. She urged me to kiss her on the mouth and I did - roughly - and she responded and felt like pure sex underneath me. She asked me if she'd been dirty enough for me and I said no. "So I can be dirtier still?" she asked and I said "yes". She urged me to kiss her again - and I did - and while I used my cock on her cunt - and she the vibrator on her clit - she came and gushed all over the towel.

When she'd recovered I told her I wanted her to take one last walk round the club, on her own, to make sure there was nobody left that she could have sex with. She was reluctant to go on her own but she did.

She used the vibrator on herself all the way home and when we got there I had her sit by me on a chair with her legs apart while I drank a beer. I just looked at her cunt. She sat there, legs apart, letting me. I got my cock out and started wanking - staring at her cunt some of the time - and into her eyes at others. Her cunt looked well-fucked - but ready for more. When I looked in her eyes I tried to hide my love for her and make her feel that the only thing I wanted her for was sex. I asked her if she loved me and she said "No, I love sex!". I smiled and she continued, "I love being fucked - by men - lots of men - and I'm going to have as many as I possibly can from now on." By this time I'd pushed my beer bottle into her cunt but I had the sudden urge to replace it with my cock. I knelt between her legs and pushed into her. Her cunt was cold from the bottle and I told her I wanted to come inside her. She said I couldn't. I asked why and she said she didn't want my mess inside her - that she wanted her cunt to be nice and clean so that other men would want to fuck it. I pointed out that she wouldn't be going to the club until Saturday - three days away. She said that didn't matter - that she wanted to be ready for other men at all times. I reminded her that she was supposed to be mine. "Not anymore," she said. "I'm anyone's. Anyone with a nice hard cock can fuck me now. You wanted me to fuck and fuck and I'm going to." I shoved my cock deeper into her and I told her that it was my cunt and I wanted to come in it. "You can use it whenever you want," she stated calmly, "but you can't come in it anymore, not without a condom, because it has to be kept nice for other men to use - at all times." She smiled at me - confident that she had complete control over me and that I wouldn't come inside her. "You can come in my mouth," she offered.

I led her upstairs with a bottle of beer in my hand. I stripped naked and got into bed. She took off her boots and her top and got into bed bed next to me still wearing her skin-tight shiny black crotchless pants. I tied her hands behind her back and lay her head on my stomach and told her to open her mouth. She did and I pushed my cock into it. I told her not to move - to just suck - and I did the moving. I drank my beer while I fucked her mouth slowly. I held her head by a clump of hair with one hand and my beer bottle with the other as I looked down at her, hands tied behind her back. I knew I couldn't hold on much longer.

I was woken in the morning by her hand feeling for my cock. It was hard and I immediately got between her legs and slipped it into her. I held her close and she felt wonderfully soft and warm as I moved inside her. She wrapped her legs round me and held me close with her arms. "Do you like fucking my dirty cunt?" she whispered. When she uses the word "dirty" like this she means that her cunt's been fucked by other men since her last bath or shower. I whispered "yes" hoarsely. "Good," she said, "because it's going to be dirty much more often from now on." She asked me how many men she'd had last night. I told her she'd had four men and got fucked twelve times by them. She told me she was only going to count the men not the number of times they fucked her. She told me she wanted to average at least one a day from now on. She knows this kind of talk turns me on - and she could feel the effect she was having on me - so she warned me "no coming". I slowed. She continued. "My cunt has to be ready for other men at all times. Who knows who I might meet when I go out? Who knows who I might meet on-line? Or who might text me? Or email me?" She paused for a moment and then asked me if I "minded" her saying such things. I told her it was how I wanted her to be but she obviously isn't one hundred percent sure because otherwise she wouldn't have needed to ask me if I minded.

This is how we progress. We fantasize. We talk about things. We do them. We talk some more to check we are both okay. We are nearly there - where I want us to be - but not quite. When she is absolutely certain that she can do whatever she wants - then we'll be there. When she knows for sure that the more she fucks other men the more I'll want her - we'll be there. When I discover that she's been seeing other men - for sex of course - behind my back - without needing my approval - without having to tell me then I'll know we are there. When she can sit calmly next to me and take a call from someone - and make arrangements to have sex with him while I stroke her leg - then we'll be there. When she gets dropped off at my house by a guy who's just fucked her so she can offer me her "dirty" cunt - we'll be there.

I got out of bed, dressed, and went out - leaving her sleeping. A couple of hours later she phoned me and asked when I was coming back. She wanted to know if I wanted to fuck her "dirty cunt" again before she she showered.

Statement

How does a woman tell the man she loves that she wants to have sex with lots of men and not just him? That she loves men wanting her for her body and her sexuality... That she loves the thrill of turning men on and the excitement of being fucked by them...

How does a man tell the woman he loves that he wants her to be so highly sexed that she just wants cock. How can you tell the woman you love that you love fucking her because her cunt feels so damn good and it's got nothing to do with love. How can you tell her that you don't want her to want YOU - but SEX. That you just want her to love being fucked. That you want her to fuck and fuck with other men so that you know that this is the case - so that when you're fucking her you know that she just wants your cock - not love, attention, affection, or security - just cock.

Every couple will have to work it out for themselves. All I would say is that the reason I'm writing all this is so that people can see that communication, together with some risk taking, can lead to really happy outcomes. WE are REALLY happy! I am really happy with both  our relationship and especially with our sex life. I hope that she is. But I would never presume. I want her to keep surprising me.

Sindy's Sexual Activity 2008

Resolutions 08

Sindy doesn't do New Year Resolutions. But I thought New Year's Eve was a good time to talk about taking things to the next stage for us.

 I told her that in 2008 I wanted her to be totally unrestrained when it came to having sex with other men. Over the years that we've been together we've progressed from our first threesome with another man to last Saturday when she went out on her own and got fucked nine times by seven different men. During our time together she has always operated within the bounds of what was acceptable to me. She's revealed more and more of her sexual nature as time has gone by and she's been certain that I would be comfortable with it. I told her it was time for her to stop worrying about my reaction and to drop all the restraints and be herself completely and do whatever she wanted. I tried to convince her that that I definitely wanted it. I told her she should devote herself to sex and put it before everything else in our relationship. I don't want to have any control over her. I want her to be free.

I told her that in 2008 inviting a man to have sex with her would be considered equivalent to actually having sex (so long as she didn't default) and that I wanted her to offer her pussy to as many men as possible. Of course this could only take place in the club but I told her that I wanted her to take the initiative and offer herself to every man that she wanted to have sex with. I stressed that the thought of her doing this really turned me on and that I really wanted to be there, next to her, watching and listening when she did it.

I told her that in 2008 she had to set herself the goal of being "unfaithful". To us that means that she has sex with someone behind my back. I told her that I wanted her to find someone that she felt safe with and to have sex with him without telling me - and most definitely without my approval. I said I wouldn't question her if I was ever suspicious. I told her I would put it in writing so that I would be responsible - and that is what I'm doing here now - Sindy I beg you to do it! Fuck as much as you want behind my back... She said she would always want to tell me and I told her she could. I said that the only problem I would have would be if she didn't do it by the end of 2008. I went on to say that she could do it as much as she wanted - with a single man - or with as many as she wanted - and as often as she wanted.

I tried to persuade her to go to the club tonight (New Year's Eve) but she said she wanted to be with me.

Brian

We met Brian as arranged at a motorway service station and had a coffee. It wasn't ideal as we had to queue for quite a while. With so many people around us we couldn't talk freely but when we sat down the conversation flowed quite nicely - mainly about swinging, clubs and experiences etc. When we'd all finished our coffee Brian just came out with the question: did we want to go back to his place. I liked his directness.

Sindy and I didn't confer. I nodded and then looked at her and she was nodding so off we went. He had a nice house and after sorting out drinks she sat on the sofa next to him. We chatted for a while and then he put his hand on her leg. She'd changed into a see-through black slip upon arrival at his house. She also had black hold-ups on and black stilettoes. She spread her legs wide and his hand felt her pussy. He turned to me to check it was okay to touch her like that and I assured him it was. She didn't seem particularly turned on at this stage and kept looking from me to him. The conversation stopped and I liked the fact that she was now the center of attention and that she was so comfortable sitting there with her legs wide apart and with a virtual stranger fingering her cunt. Then the expression on her face changed as his fingers began to have an effect on her. She was no longer just letting him finger her. Now I could see desire taking over. She closed her eyes for a moment. Her body relaxed. Her head tilted back. She murmured. Less than five minutes had passed since he first touched her but I could see that the only thing she wanted now was to be fucked. She suggested we all go upstairs...

She lay on the bed and I started using our vibrating dildo on her cunt while Brian got undressed. He kissed her tits for a while and then took over with the dildo. It was deep inside her by this time and I  sucked her nipples while he moved the dildo in and out slowly and licked her clit. I stroked my hands all over her body - leg, stomach, neck - because I know she likes being touched - especially by more than one man. I kissed her on the mouth and she started moaning and I knew the effect Brian was having on her. I had to explain to him that she would squirt soon if he continued. She gets embarrassed about squirting but it was obvious that he loved the idea so I suggested that he get a towel. This he did and we folded it and slid it under her bottom. We resumed and she squirted for him and then said that she wanted cock...

We took turns fucking her for about an hour. At the start I had some problems with my erection - as I sometimes do in the presence of another man but I got into it. What I noticed was that her cunt was so swelled up inside that it was really difficult to get my cock into it - it had to be fully hard because it had to be forced in. This wasn't because she wasn't turned on - it was because she was SO turned on.

Afterwards I told him he could fuck her again if he wanted to - that all he had to do was get in touch and I'd bring her round. I didn't consult her about this - I didn't need to. And if we start seeing him regularly I'll tell him he can let some of his friends fuck her too. I won't consult her on this either. It will be a surprise. She won't be forced to have sex with them. There won't be any need. She might be angry at my presumption when this happens but I know that she will still let Brian start touching her, with me and his friends watching, and that she'll get turned on and her anger will turn to annoyance and then, when she sees our growing desire for her body, it will turn to excitement and she will positively want to be fucked time after time by all of us. Then again being taken to Brian's so that his friends can "use her" might really turn her on from the start. Later, I told her this fantasy. I was fucking her and she obviously wanted me to talk dirty to her because she asked me what I was thinking. I told her I was thinking about telling Brian he could offer her to his friends. I told her I was thinking about how it would be if I took her round to his place - I told her I wondered how she would feel when she discovered there were six of them and not just one. I asked her if she would be angry with me and she said no. I asked her if she would be pleased and she said yes. I asked her if she would let all of them fuck her and she said of course.

Letting go

Saturday was really busy for Sindy and it was 9.30 pm before she had taken care of everything. I thought she'd be too tired to go out. Personally I'd rather have settled down in front of the TV with some beer but she said she still wanted to go to the club. By the time she was ready it was gone 11pm and she asked me if it was worth going. I told her that I wanted her to go for my own selfish reasons but she was free to make her own mind up. She decided to go.

I fucked her and then drove her to the club. Before she got out of the car, and remembering what I'd asked her to say, she whispered in my ear that she needed a really good hard fucking and then she went. It's hard to describe the smile that was on her face. Conspiratorial maybe. Defiant. Indulgent. Confident. The one thing I didn't suspect was deceit.

It was midnight by this time and I drove back to her house and tried to sleep in her bed. I read for a while. I drifted off. I woke. I wanked. I had intense, semi-conscious, sexual feelings engulfing me and I nearly came even though I wasn't touching myself, nor even awake properly. I checked the time occasionally when I surfaced and was pleased the later it got without her beckoning phone call - for I knew what would be detaining her - sex. I heard a phantom phone ring in my sleep and waking I smiled at the realisation that it was a trick of the mind. And then, in the midst of a deep sleep, the phone did ring and I scrambled for the light switch and then the phone.

I drove through the dark winter's night - side streets, motorway, dual-carriageway, traffic lights, roundabouts, at 3.00 am in the morning listening to Dracula on the World Service. Actually Dracula finished just before 3.00 am in case anyone is checking up on me. Everything I write is based on real events. There is some artistic licence but not much.

I parked and went into the club. I was dismayed to see that she wasn't waiting in the reception area. I don't like having to go looking for her - in my street clothes - with a winter coat on - with my hair sticking up from sleeping on it. But the receptionist was new and didn't recognise me - she wouldn't let me go in anyway. She made a call to someone say to tell Sindy that her lift was here. I phoned her. No answer. I waited and waited. I phoned again. No answer. I started getting mad... It was only ten minutes in total but when she finally appeared I was seething. I greeted her with "I don't like being kept waiting". She didn't even have her coat and things and had to go back into the club to get them. More waiting.

I didn't hold her hand as we walked to the car. I walked slightly ahead of her. When we drove off she explained that she'd mis-calculated the time I'd arrive. She wasn't angry with me but she had good reason to be. My anger gripped me and I knew I had to break free of it. She said she thought I'd like the idea of having to go looking for her - especially if I came across her when someone was fucking her.

I'd already planned a place to stop on the way home, in accordance with her wishes when we were talking dirty and I thought it would be a good way to break out of my angry state by pulling up there. This I did. I told her she said we had to stop on the way home and she looked relieved that things were getting back to normal and she leaned towards me. I put my hand between her legs and she whispered that she had been a very, very dirty bitch. Her cunt was swollen and wet and wide open. I noticed in the club that she'd looked drunk and dishevelled and putting it all together it was obvious that she'd had a good night.

She told me that she wanted me to fuck her and said we'd have to find somewhere more suitable - it was quite brightly lit. I got out of the car and walked round to her side and told her I was going to lick her dirty cunt. She angled herself so her legs were spread and I crouched down and licked her. Her cunt smelled strongly of condoms and she started telling me how much fucking she'd done. She squirted into my mouth and I just had to stick my cock in her and fuck her.

On the way home she told me about her evening. Basically after wandering around checking things out and chatting with the people she knows she'd gathered a little group of men that were following her around at a safe distance. She said it was as if all of them wanted to watch her doing things but none of them wanted to be first. She told them she wanted sex and led them into a room and lay on the bed before them. Gradually things got going and she said that she lost count of the number of men that fucked her. I asked her how long it went on for and she was vague. She said over an hour. She reckoned it was seven guys when I pressed her. But she said two of them fucked her twice.

We did our normal thing when we got home. She sat on my face. She talked dirty to me. I fucked her. I was amazed that she still wanted sex. I'd probably fucked her ten times during the day, and then she'd had another seven guys, and I'd fucked her on the way home, and when we went to bed she still wanted more. She actually squirted when I was fucking her and that is extremely rare - it is usually when I'm fingering her that she squirts, sometimes when I lick her. At 4.00 am she passed out - well she fell asleep at least. I was fucking her from behind as I realised she was no longer conscious. It didn't matter to me. It felt good. It's better when she's awake of course but by that time of the night it was just indulgence - the fantastic feel of her cunt round my cock. She was so wet from squirting that there were squelching noises coming from her pussy. I wondered if it mattered to her body that she was asleep - would her pussy stay lubricated, enjoying being fucked, even though she was asleep. Well I fucked her for 20 minutes and her cunt was just as wet at the end as it had been at the beginning and, exhausted, I fell asleep too.

I fucked her when we woke and she reminded me that I was taking her out to be fucked that evening. I said "yes, I know, that's what gave me the hard-on".

So what do I make of it all? She'd had a gruelling day but her desire for sex overcame her tiredness. She let herself be gang-banged even though she'd previously told me she could only ever have sex like that if I was watching over her. At 4.00 am in the morning, after being fucked 20 times during the day, her body was still hungry for sex. The next morning, after three hours sleep she still wanted sex and was looking forward to the "new cock" that would be fucking her that evening. She's turning into the kind of woman I want her to be. On another level I know that she's in control of everything! She needs our relationship. More than the sex I would say. But if she can have the sex as well so much the better. I'm the limiting force rather than the driving force. She reveals as much of herself as she thinks she can without blowing our relationship. We are moving forward all the time, though in fits and starts if you look at things over five years. I think we are passed the point of no return now. I want her to go the whole way. Whatever that is. I want her to let go of all her inhibitions - her concern for our relationship for example. When it comes to having casual sex with lots of men there are a number of things that a woman should be concerned about, things that inhibit the flow of natural and positive feelings. I wanted her to trust me to take care of all those negative concerns (safe sex, physical safety, unpleasantness etc) and let go - to abandon herself to the pleasures of sex, whether physical, emotional, or psychological. I want her sex drive to be set free to take her wherever she wants to go. And I will be there with her. The one she goes to sleep with. The one that fucks her morning, noon, and night - everyday. Or at least whenever I can manage it.

Friday Night

Sindy has told me several times over the last few days that she'll be going to the swingers club twice a week from now on - starting with tonight. This is good. This is how I want her to be. In addition I've arranged for us to meet someone tomorrow night. She okay'd his profile but I've done all the messaging with him. I like the idea of him fucking her without even talking to her. We would talk about her and look at her and touch her casually. I'd lift her hem and offer him her cunt and he'd look and then touch and then he'd want her. I would nod my approval to him and I would lie her down. He'd get between her legs and lick her, murmuring his appreciation, and then he'd put a condom on and fuck her. She'd look towards me, wanting my cock in her mouth, and we'd take turns fucking her cunt and her mouth, swapping every five minutes, with me counting how many times...

What is a fucking? A guy could come in thirty seconds - some have - and that would clearly be a single fucking. Another guy could fuck her in numerous positions for an hour - how many fuckings would that count as? One? Or is it a fucking every time they change position. Or every time they pause and resume. What if two guys take turns for an hour? Is that two fuckings or one for every time they swap?

I'm going to introduce a new rule for 2008. If Sindy offers her cunt to someone I'm going to count it as a fucking whether or not he actually does fuck her - some have problems with their erections at the club and can't actually manage it. The important thing is her wanting to be fucked and watching her offer her cunt to someone is probably a bigger turn-on for me than watching her get fucked. It would give us another reason for going to the club and another objective when we are there. Generally I look at the guys and try to assess whether they have it in them to maintain an erection and give her a good fucking with me and possibly others watching. Nine out of ten don't look like they could manage it and we avoid them. But if the objective was for her to offer herself to them then it would be worth approaching them, engaging them in conversation, and setting things up so that she could do it. And if they performed well it would be so much the better.

Last night she wore those skin-tight, black, shiny pants again. The pair with the hole cut out of the crotch. She'd brought her web cam especially so she'd obviously planned ahead. She went online and used a dildo on herself and got over 600 guys watching. We had two laptops side by side and  I took over with the dildo and she messaged people trying to find someone that lived nearby - someone to fuck her. She broadcast the question "does anyone want to fuck this?" referring to her cunt of course as I slid the dildo deeply into her in long slow strokes. I did it too deeply and it hurt her but she wasn't angry or annoyed with me and just said "not so deep" as if she was coaching me, as if she was grateful for my assistance, pleased to have me working on her cunt because it left her fingers free to tap away on the keyboard. She was clearly enjoying the pleasure of it too from the gasps escaping from her throat but she was more absorbed with the six hundred guys that were watching - the thrill of offering herself to them - asking if they lived nearby - telling them where the swingers club was and when she was going to be there.

Later, when I was fucking her in bed, she told me that she was going to fuck a lot of men at the club, the next night. She said I'd be dropping her off after fucking her myself in her bedroom and that I'd be going back for her at 3.30 in the morning. She said her cunt would be really well fucked by then and that I'd have to stop somewhere on the way home and bury my face in her cunt and smell the sex and the condoms of all the men that had fucked her. She said she'd want my cock too because she wanted fucking on the way home but I wouldn't be allowed to come because she'd want more sex when we got home and because her cunt had to be kept nice and clean for the guy we'd arranged to meet the next day. She said all this while we had sex and she had me swapping between licking her and fucking her and fingering her while she sucked my cock. She was very turned-on and squirted several times. What was best was that she told me she wanted to fuck and fuck and that she was going to let lots of men use her from now on.

In the morning I got between her legs and slid my cock into her while she was still asleep. Of course she woke up and after I'd fucked her I told her I wanted her to go back to sleep thinking about the fact that I expected her to be fucking much more from now on. She got up later and was leaning on the worktop in the kitchen waiting for her toast to do under the grill. I slipped my cock between her legs and fucked her.... We went back to bed and after she'd finished her coffee I told her I wanted her to suck my cock. She lay with her head on my stomach and I held her firmly and thrust slowly into her mouth. I told her not to move and we lay there like that for a long time and she seemed perfectly content to let me fuck her mouth for as long as I wanted. After a while I told her I wanted her cunt and I held her in my arms. She felt fantastic. Warm and soft and moving under me - pleasuring herself on my cock. We stared into each other's eyes intently - two individuals - separate but like two halves of a whole.

Boxing Day Action

I gave her options for the afternoon of the 26th, Boxing Day, the day after Christmas. I said she could go on line and web cam with someone or I could take her out to look for someone to have sex with. She chose to web cam and I was glad because I wanted to watch her showing her pussy to some guy and hear her telling him how much she wished he could be fucking her... But we couldn't get the web cam to work and she told me I'd just have to take her out. I was getting ready when she came into the bedroom and told me that someone had just emailed her from the swingers site - he lived nearby and he was free - he'd invited us round to his place. "Well say yes," I told her, "I want to watch someone fucking you." She ran down stairs and came back with his address...

She wore a slinky black dress. Very short. No underwear. Black hold-ups and high heels. We found his house and went in. We told him we only had 25 minutes. She went to the toilet and I told him that she was all ready to fuck... She sat next to him on the sofa and he started stroking her leg but then he seemed to lose his confidence. He asked her how she would like to play it. I later told her that was her opportunity to spread her legs and pull the hem of her dress up. I told her I'd have loved to have watched her offering her pussy to him. I told her that was the way I wanted her to behave. She suggested we all go upstairs so we did. I sat in a chair and they got on the bed. She was smiling at me. She spread her legs. She stared at me as he licked her pussy. She was pleased because I had my cock out and I was wanking. She got his cock out and wanked him and then she put a condom on it and started sucking it. After a while she got on all-fours, her head towards me, and he slipped his cock into her from behind. She beckoned me closer and took my cock into her mouth clearly wanting to have two cocks at once. He fucked her and came and then we left. It took exactly 25 minutes from meeting him.

She wanted to sit on my face when we got home and of course I obliged. When I was fucking her I asked her if she was happy with her sex life. She hesitated. "Could be better?" I asked. She nodded - a little embarrassed. She said "our" sex life was great so I asked how "her" sex life could be better.  She said she wanted more. More men. More fucking. I said I wanted her to have the sex life she wanted. I told her that it excited me to think that she wanted so much sex. Wanted so much cock. So much fucking. She thought for a moment and then spoke. She obviously wanted to correct my understanding of her. "What I want," she said, "is to be used, by you, and by other men". Then she thought some more. "But really," she said, "I'm doing the using."

Looking ahead to 2008

I told her that in 2008 I wanted sex to be the most important thing when it came to us. I know there more important things in life but when it came to our relationship I said that I wanted her to devote herself to sex. In particular I told her that I wanted her to fuck behind my back. I said I'd put it in writing so that if I ever got upset about it she could show it to me and tell me I'd begged her to. I told her she should keep count and on the last day of 2008 she should add an entry to our diary with the number so we'd know just how many times she'd been fucked (by other men) in the year. I said that if it was zero I'd be very disappointed with her. I said that the only rule should be that she was safe and that the sex should be safe.

I said that she should devote herself to sex and put it before all the other things we do. There are times in the week that we always spend together and do regular things like cook a meal or watch a film. I said that they should take second place to sex and that she could make arrangements to meet other men if she wanted to. I said I'd take her and wait or pick her up or accompany her - whatever she wanted.

I told her that if she wanted to keep our sex life exciting she should fuck other men as much as she could. In particular I told her that the biggest turn-on for me was knowing that she wanted to have sex with lots of other men. I told her straight that when it came to fucking her I liked her best when she'd just been fuck by another man - or men... She knows I love her but she also knows that I like pretending that I don't. She knows I like using her body and she doesn't mind, she lets me. I can just spread her legs and start playing with her pussy without permission, without even looking her in the eye. I can just use her body for my own pleasure like I'd have a wank if I was on my own. She's always pleased when I do this. She always gets into it. She always responds. I tell her I want to let other men use her like that too. I dare myself to say it and it excites me to be able to say it to her. I take it to extremes and I tell her she's just a cunt to me, nothing else, a cunt that's there to be fucked whenever I want. A cunt that's there for other men to fuck, for any nice hard cock to fuck. Of course I only do this when she is really turned-on and she always gets even more turned on. She likes it just as much as I do.

We talked on Christmas Day and she said she wanted me to take her out more, looking for men. We go for a drink or a walk around a town and we never find anyone but she said she just likes being with me in that situation. She said she likes going out in a short skirt, with no underwear on, holding hands with me - knowing that I want her to have sex with a total stranger. She said she knew nothing ever happened but it was still exciting. She said the nicest thing about it was knowing that I wanted a total stranger to fuck her. I think it must be that she likes to go out and about in the real world with the sexual side of her personality in the limelight. If I'm taking her out to be fucked it's shows that I approve of her. Approve of her basic nature - which seems to be that she's a girl that just loves sex and wants as much of it as she can get.

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I spent the morning editing some video footage to make a clip for Sindy's profile on the swingers' web site she uses. It started with the camera slowly panning over her legs. I was adding text in the form of sub-titles and started off with a big "Hi!" and followed up with "My name is Sindy". She moved her legs provocatively and started stroking them with her hand and I added "I love sex". She was wearing black stiletto heeled shoes and black hold-ups. And a red dress but this was pulled up so that her stocking tops were just showing. I followed up on "I love sex" by adding "and not just with my partner - who's making this video - I love sex with lots of men." She slipped the shoulder straps of her dress down and started playing with her tits and I added "my boyfriend encourages me to fuck and fuck and I'm looking for more men to have sex with". As she played with her tits, stroked her legs, and started playing with her pussy I added the following text: "All I want is sex. I don't need to be wined and dined. I don't need to get to know you well. I don't need to know anything about you. I don't even need to know your name. I let perfect strangers fuck me. I always want sex! Do you want sex with me? Are you between 25 and 45? Are you in reasonably shape? Do you have somewhere you can take me - to fuck me? Your own place? A hotel room? A swingers club?" She was now lying with her legs wide apart and her cunt was wet, swollen, and gaping wide open. I'd been seriously trying to word a proper ad but I got a bit carried away in the sequence that followed. The camera showed her face - serious and intent - and I added the words "this is what I want" just as the camera panned down to her cunt and my cock started pushing up and down between her pussy lips. In the footage that followed I fucked her in close-up. From the front. From behind. I only used the best clips - where my cock could be clearly seen pushing in to her cunt - in and out repeatedly. I added the following words: "My boyfriend tells me I was made for fucking and it's true. I was made for fucking and your cock could fuck me just like this one. If things worked out you could fuck me whenever you wanted - once a month, once a week, every day! I always want sex. You could even share me with your friends. The thought of four, five, or six guys all wanting to fuck me is heaven to me." It finished with a close up of her cunt being held open by her fingers with the words "all that cock, all that fucking, my pussy wants it, my pussy needs it!".

Soon as I'd finished she wanted to see it. I was all prepared for her to say "no way!" to actually adding it to her profile and letting the world see it. I was all prepared to tone it down. I waited for her response. She looked a little uncertain - as if she felt she was taking a big risk with me - and then she nodded and said I could add it to her profile. I was amazed. Of course my cock was rock hard so I slipped it in to her and we stared into each other's eyes as I slowly fucked her. The video had been fantasy for me - my dream of how I'd like her to be - and it turned out I'd captured the real her. I looked down on her as I fucked her slowly and she seemed terribly vulnerable. It was as if she'd revealed a weakness. I felt as if the video had captured her real nature - that she'd been unable to resist the temptation of admitting it to me- drawn by the thought of acting it out and expressing it - with me and with other men. It was as if she was transferring a huge amount of trust to me. It was as if she wanted to finally give in to her sex drive after a lifetime of repression, as if it was my responsibility to be her protector, as if she would no longer be able to fight her need for sex, as if all she wanted was a cock in her, any nice hard cock, fucking her, wanting her, coming inside her. An endless succession of cocks...

Later she was talking about some early adventures in her sex life. This was around the time she got caught by her husband and was threatened with divorce if she didn't stop meeting other men. She chose divorce because there were things she wanted to experience. I asked what they were and she mentioned a few things - sex with couples was one of them. I asked her what she wanted now, with me, within our relationship (or outside of it I added). She said she wanted to have sex with lots of men. She said she wanted to be fucked by as many men as possible. She went on to explain that what she particularly wanted was to be fucked by more than one man at a time. I asked what the perfect number was and she said four. "One in my cunt, one in my mouth, and one in each hand," she said. "I suppose you'd like it to be five," she said to me with a smirk - meaning that she knew I'd like to see her being fucked up the arse too.

After dinner surprise

The shiny black pants

Sindy bought some shiny, skin-tight, black pants that show every contour and she came into my office to show me them. She was also wearing a pair of black pvc thigh-boots and a tight black pvc top... My jaw dropped and my cock went hard immediately and all I wanted to do was fuck her. I was polite though and complimented her for about thirty seconds but then I started sliding my hands over her body - her thighs, her bottom, her pussy... And I just couldn't resist the temptation. I bent her over my desk, pulled the new pants down, and slid my cock into her from behind. She told me not to come because she was going out fucking that night - that I'd be dropping her off at the club and picking her up afterwards. All I was thinking was that it was a pity I had to pull the pants down and how it would be much better if the crotch was cut out so that her cunt was accessible.

I told her I was glad she was going out and I noticed that she was smiling as I fucked her from behind. I asked her if she was happy and her smile spread as she nodded. She'd asserted herself and exercised the right she had, within our relationship, to go out fucking on her own - and she'd seen how much it had turned me on. I had to slow - I was so close to coming - and she groaned softly, disappointed, and whispered over her shoulder to me that she needed a really good fucking. "That's why you're going out tonight - to find a nice hard cock that'll give you a good hard fuck," I whispered back. "Not just one," she corrected me, "lots!".

We agreed that the new pants were great and went out and bought three more pairs! When we got to her house I cut out the crotch of one of them and got her to try the whole outfit on again. I took photos and fucked her again in them. Then more photos of her wide-open cunt and more fucking. I begged her to go out like that - in the tight black pants, the tight black top, and the thigh-length boots - with her pussy on view - inviting - wide open and wet - and all ready to be fucked. But she said no. I asked why and she said because she'd have too many men pawing her. I said she could just say that they could look but not touch but she didn't want the hassle. I was still fucking her and I was slowing again for fear of coming. She thrust her pussy forward and her legs clasped me and pulled me on to her. I nearly came and her eyes warned me that I'd be in serious trouble if I did. She stared hard into my eyes and then she said, slowly and sternly, "I - need - fucking". I nearly came again and I whispered to her that this was how I wanted her to be when she went to the club and that was what I wanted her to say to me as we kissed goodbye before she got out of the car.

Sorry about the quality of the photos! Don't know what went wrong with the first one. The second one is better apart from the strap swinging into view...

Another new start...

We went to the club... Sindy was feeling very horny and I fucked her several times in a private room but the other guys there - they just didn't look like they'd be able manage having sex with a woman. I couldn't be bothered trying to initiate anything for Sindy and none of them approached us... So we came home early.

We had sex in bed and Sindy adopted a more dominant personality than normal. She told me I was going to be dropping her off at the club on Saturday night and that from now on she was going to go on her own on a Wednesday rather than with me. I told her I wanted her to fuck and fuck and she called me a pervert. I admitted that I was and told her that the dirtier she was the more she turned me on. I told her that fucking her was always better when I knew that other guys had fucked her - and the more the better. She said she'd be going out fucking twice a week then from now on. I asked her who she was doing it for and at first she said it was for me and then for us - but then I told her that I knew she did it for herself and that she was just lucky that I liked it so much. She didn't argue - she just said that we were both lucky.

If she stays in this frame of mind then our sex life will have a direction again.

Back down to earth with a bump

We went to the club but it wasn't very good. Sindy had sex with two guys. One wasn't bad but the other was a real disappointment. We left early and had sex in the kitchen when we got home, in bed before we went to sleep and then again in the morning. I told Sindy that I was going to advertise for men to fuck her. She went along with it for a while but then told me that she wouldn't do it. She didn't mind me choosing the men in principle but explained that if I chose someone she'd already rejected she would not be very happy. So assuming control has been a bit of a sham. She only lets me have control when she knows I'll only be getting her to do things she wants to do... Made me realise that she is the one in control not me.

The good thing is that it confirms that she wants to do all the things that we DO do... The bad thing is that it has taken the wi